This is it, finally!! Day one here I come.


I'm tired of being trapped in this prison. I'm tired of being alive and want to start truly living!!

This is the biggest I've ever been. I can't blame anyone but myself, and I don't. When I had weight loss surgery I wasn't truly ready. I didn't do it for me, I did it more to placate my dad and family. 

I lost weight (see archive) but wasn't prepared mentally and ultimately sabataged it because I was rebelling.

I'm going to use this as my journal and getting back to updating on a more regular basis.

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