This is it, finally!! Day one here I come.
I'm tired of being trapped in this prison. I'm tired of being alive and want to start truly living!! This is the biggest I've ever been. I can't blame anyone but myself, and I don't. When I had weight loss surgery I wasn't truly ready. I didn't do it for me, I did it more to placate my dad and family. I lost weight (see archive) but wasn't prepared mentally and ultimately sabataged it because I was rebelling. I'm going to use this as my journal and getting back to updating on a more regular basis.