BecomingANew.Me

When you finally get sick and tired of being sick and tired you will make changes, for me today was that day. I'm sad. I'm tired of just existing. I am a prisoner of my own obesity. I have become trapped in an apartment because I am too far to drive. I have nobody to blame but myself.  I tried to find happiness through someone else's love and attention only to come to the realization woman are just as shallow as I am. I had one girl tell me she couldn't introduce me to her parents because they wouldn't be able to get past my size. Today was surreal I had been anticipating this date since Nov 3rd because I felt the truth would prevail and the blatant election fraud would be exposed.  Then to see those I was counting on to secure justice fail me one by one made me feel more sad than when I lost my city council election or state representative race. However I realized I can do nothing from my apartment. I must get in the game and get off t...

M, I'm not sure what to write. My therapist said to write a letter and tear it up. So this will be my attempt then after that I'll be released and supposedly will no longer be blocked by it and free to improve. Divorce sucks for everyone. This makes ten years since the divorce. A divorce that I didn't want, I take responsibility for my actions. I suck as a dad, and probably did as a husband as well. But how can someone improve if the other person won't even give you a chance. You're 😡 I think, but how the hell could I even know, I text and get nothing, DM nothing, even write hand written letters and still get 🦗 At my current weight I've probably got 5 years based on my last Dr visit. It really sucks losing a parent, especially when it was preventable. The sad thing is I don't care.  I need purpose something that I've been lacking in a consistent basis for a long time. I've had spurts but nothing.  I look at you and your siblings as the one bright s...

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Is thks thing still on?! Lol I'm going to start blogging again.... Stay tuned!

LinkedIn friends I need your help! The picture on the left is my father's 2nd lieutenant commission photo prior to Vietnam, and the one on the left was his final picture before retiring as a Colonel. This is where I need your help. My father was helicopter pilot during Vietnam and I'm working to get him the congressional medal of honor for one of his acts of heroism during one of his missions. I am doing this without his knowledge. I have his service records and we even have confirmation from one of the people he saved, but need help tracking down the other officer involved.  My father found out about what I was doing and sent me the following narrative of events.... During the October-November 1967 time frame. I was the aircraft commander. The warrant officer on the right in the photo was the copilot. The other two are the enlisted crew.  While flying command and control for an infantry unit I had a colonel in the back with hi...

And sixteen months or 230 pounds lighter.

And these are those pants now.

Time had been flying by adding and things are going great. I weighed for the first time on Sunday and couldn't believe three results, my weigh at surgery was 670#, on Sunday it was 632.8, for a loss of 37.2#!! I weighed myself four times because I couldn't believe it!!! It has really been different than I was expecting,i had a binge eating issue period to surgery and would typically spend $20+ at the drive thru including a couple of large sodas. I have had zero issues or even cravings since the surgery!!! I've got an appointment with a therapist to start unpacking much of the things that were obviously underlying issues but just have never dealt with. It's amazing how the protein shakes fill me up, and I've learned how to tell three signals my stomach is sending, the only issue I've had is a minor flare up of gout which is apparently fairly common since the dramatic changes and the new higher amounts of protein present post op. I've even been somew...

It's been a while since I last updated this so I'll try not to be too verbose. One of the big things I've been in the process of working on was getting approved for bariatric surgery and finally was and had the surgery last Thursday March 12,2015. A few observations, first I was one that thought surgery was cheating and if I last a significant amount of weight it would be discounted or dismissed because of having the surgery; I got past that and now realize I've got to put in the work and the surgery is just one of the tools in my arsenal. Secondly I realize that I looked as my final days as "my last days" and as such actually gained weight to my highest point ever, 670 pounds! It seemed in the final two weeks prior to surgery I went to every favorite restaurant and ate my favorite meals and drank plenty of soda to wash it down! Lastly I know there are ways to sabotage the surgery so it will still come down to my willingness to treat foods as fuel and not ...

I know it's little late for New Years resolutions, and since I don't do resolutions I guess it's okay. However, in 2014 I want things to be different, I know I know (said it before and I've tried multiple times before) but this year it's going to be different (at least I'll tell myself that). I'd love feedback to see if it's just me or do others struggle with sabotaging myself. The stakes have never been higher, right before Christmas I had a scare and had to spend a few days in the hospital. Turns out it was just anxiety, however I thought I was having a heart attack and was nervous because I knew with my size there is not a whole lot they can do. I had one of my doctors that had attended to me in the past and he was very blunt and told me how it was. I find that very refreshing because so often I'd love for doctors to tell me hey lose weight or you're going to die, but it seems in these days of politically correctness theyre afraid or don'...

I just wanted to drop a quick note to let everyone know starting tomorrow I will start updating the blog daily with the reasons behind my motivation to lose weight. It will have the usual reasons commonly cited as well as others offering insight into my background and future plans. I am also going to pass along bits of motivation I've found and used, and hope you can find them as beneficial as I have. Hope you're having a great week! Below is a great clip by one of the best motivators out there

It's been a while since I've posted anything and things have been good. I'm currently seeing someone, and have been since last November.  She has been great and has really showed me that regardless of the outside I do have value and do deserve to be happy. Just found out my youngest has started running with a group of girls and is going to do a 5k April 27th.  We're going to do it together!  I won't be able to run it, but i'm going to start hitting the gym hard, it's great having a carrot to keep me going! Another example how we can learn so much from our kids!! Well i'm going to try and start posting more consistently.  Good luck with your goals and hope you have a great week!

Well I may regret it but i've decided to dabble in stand up comedy. I've always had a knack for helping others laugh, and after seeing some other aspiring comics feel what the heck.  I'm working on my routine and will try it out in the upcoming weeks.If you'd like to keep up with it you can follow me @militantfatman on twitter. As far as the weight loss goes, I haven't weighed (but plan on tomorrow morn) but have been excersizing. I have to go to the hospital to weigh and with my schedule it just hasn't happened.  Either way i'll let you know how it turns out. Hope you are having a great weekend, drop me a line I always appreciate the feedback.

Thanks for doing this. Yesterday as I listened I began to reflect and cry as I pondered past choices, and memories. My Life Changing Decision occurred in 2006 when I left my stable job to embark on a journey to pursue my passion and ultimately cost me my marriage. To understand this a little better let me give you some background. I weighed almost 600 pounds and was hospitalized due to an injury I received while trying to lose weight. It was during that stay that one of the doctors asked me what I did and after hearing my response and lack of purpose suggested if I didn't make some real changes to both health and career I'd be dead in 5-10 years because of my weight. I was married for almost eleven years during which I added three incredible children and ballooned almost 300 pounds. Eventually I topped out at 667 #! I tried out for The Biggest Loser 4 times and finally one of the local producers told me candidly I was too fat for the show. I have a passion to...